Living by myself for the first time is making me think about things myself and the people who surround me now and the people who have surrounded me in the past. It is strange where life takes us and where life finally places us after we get done riding the roller coaster for so long and then there are those who never stop riding the roller coaster. I miss everyone from my past and soon I may be going off to grad school and I will miss everyone who I have in my life now. I have been truly blessed by having so many great friends who put up with all of my complaining and weaknesses. I would do anything for them if they just asked me to. I am blessed that I do have the strength to carry myself through school well into grad school. I am thankful that I can still keep in some contact with people from the past and that I can make new connections to people here in the present as well as being able to dream of the future. Life hurts there are people who will hurt you and you will selfishly hurt them in return. At least for most people they do that. I am finding more about myself the longer I live alone. Slowly slipping into the real me maybe? Expressing all of me pain and anger that I used to hold inside while in highschool thinking tha that was the best way. It is not. Anyway this is just a ranting journal about nothing to most but it does mean a lot to me.